i never, ever thought another man could love me. not like this. i was convinced for years that being trans meant that i was unloveable and undesirable.
but you know that post that goes, “all i want is a partner who is way out of my league but thinks that i’m way out of their league and we’ll live together in perfect confused harmony with a dog”?
that’s us.
trans dudes who like dudes, especially if you’re young and feeling real hopeless–don’t worry, it’ll happen. you CAN find a man who loves you–gross, mushy, sappy love–who’ll nurse you through your surgeries, cook dinner with you four or five times a week, whose body meshes just right against yours… who, years on, still stuns you with your shared vulnerability and trust, with his laugh, with how you can see the freckles in his eyes when your faces are pressed together; with how your skittish pulse slows in his arms, or that when you’re both half-asleep, he’ll press a kiss between your shoulderblades and pull you closer to him…
tl;dr: being a gay trans man doesn’t doom you to a life without love. hang in there.
I Knowing Me - a 28-page gender journey autobiography
A firsthand collection of events from my trangender experience, spanning from junior high years to mid-college days.
Available on Simple Goods as a .pdf folder for $5.50. No paypal involved, direct card transaction! (Use the code B&WTRANS for a 50% discount!)
Also available on Storenvy as a quality art book. Preorder ends February 1st, and books will be shipped that very week!
I Knowing Me was a semester-long art project for my comic class, but I also wanted to create something outreaching and long-lasting. Never in my life have I found a trans autobiography that I could relate to. So I decided to make my own. For the sake of myself, and others that might benefit from a more diverse trans visibility.
During the first few months of identifying as trans, I was overwhelmed by the negativity and other people’s presumptions of what it means to be trans. I lacked much of the ‘canonical’ trans experience as popularized by mainstream visibility, so I struggled with the fear that my identity wasn’t legitimate, amongst other worries that bogged up my mind and dragged me down.
